The new me

Hi there.

I am finally in front to my new self again or how ever you say back to the old self when you don’t have an old self to go back to.

Five weeks ago I did my SRS and it has been a few hard weeks after that. I know it is almost unforgivable to say that you are a new person after SRS in the trans community and I’m not saying that one surgery suddenly change everything and 6 weeks ago I was someone completely different and that you can’t transition without SRS.

What I am saying is that me getting SRS is something I needed to do legally to change my F to M in the governmental database and to get an ID that state who I am. That is what I wanted to do and the SRS is mostly icing on the cake I was striving towards. I started to grow to become who I am now many years ago but it wasn’t until the papers with my new personnummer that gets me this new identity came I felt that this new me could take my first breath as the person I want to be. All of that is behind me now.

Or soonish anyways. I got a little multi-resistant bug that made me sick and it took four weeks and several different hospitals to get what was wrong and I have had the time to get to know 8 different kinds of opiates and have tried 9 kinds of antibiotics this last month. Finally the lab found the specific bacteria and now I have the right meds.

I am at home since a week and are feeling well and a couple of more days I will be done with this last cure and beginning to look like it will be good yule this year too.